I have seen this video quite some time back ago. Recently, I saw another video that reminds me of the song "Praan" again...
The same stream of life that runs through my veins night and day runs through the world and dances in rhythmic measures.
It is the same life that shoots in joy through the dust of the earth in numberless blades of grass and breaks into tumultuous waves of leaves and flowers.
It is the same life that is rocked in the ocean-cradle of birth and of death, in ebb and in flow.
I feel my limbs are made glorious by the touch of this world of life. And my pride is from the life-throb of ages dancing in my blood this moment.
I love the idea of how a simple silly dance can bring so much joy out of everyone, regardless of race, language or religion...
Dance have proven that it is the universal way of expressing joy.
ps: Thanks to Matt (dancing guy in the video), Palbasha Siddique (singer of "Praan"), Garry Schyman (composer of the music) & all joyous people of the World...
all gone, just like that... 7:37 PM
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Throttle Back, Flame Out...
Here I am just back not long ago from my Squadron Guard Duty... Totally depleted...
I believe many people in the Squadron who doesn't serve Guard Duties, don't fully understand what the Active guards (2) are supposed to be doing in their 24 hours shift. Running through the checklist, are already quite an ample amount of tasks to keep you occupied for the day, BUT there are always additional tasks to be carried out too. For those that are blessed with ignorance, I shall enlighten or rather remind them that Squadron Guard Duty is a semi-administrative duty. Semi-administrative as in guards will also need to exert some physics at certain times, but not killing them.
Some people are just out to exploit the duty personnel... Help me print this... Help me laminate this... Help me label & arrange all these... Etc... etc... etc...
On top of all the above irresponsible inputs by other people, either one will have to go escort the contractors while they are working, ensuring that they are not infringing any security breaches. Then other one will be banished to the PDSes to support the operations. Sometimes being forgotten that he have been working for 14-16 hours already (starting from 0800, covering both shifts)...
Whoever think it is an easy task, come! Let's swap places!
all gone, just like that... 11:01 AM
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Up
No doubt there weren't any changes of words/post/designs/pictures to this Blog for more than half of the year... I need to announce that I am not dead yet...
Here are 428 "Damn You!". Thanks for screwing up my life once again...
Guess what? They have just informed me that I will be going back on the 16 March 2010 again! Isn't it awesome? Just happened that I sold my car! Everything is falling apart for me, here in America and Singapore! I insisted to go back on 5 February but they just tell me its not going to happen. How many times have I liaised my domestic stuffs already? The people that I have informed of my arrival dates to Singapore are already sick of hearing that there is an ANOTHER change to my date AGAIN. My colleagues are making a joke out of it on me daily. Yes, you guys sees me smiling and laughing together with u that is because when I am at work I try my best to be professional, try to focus on the tasks assigned and complete the day. But does anybody knows all the things that are falling apart behind me? Nobody...
21 April 2009
Joined 428FS. Assisted my flight in AFTO781 and IMDS with my knowledge from the previous USAF platform. Credit goes to those appointment I/Cs. I get ZERO recognition for being appointed as just a Sports I/C.
Court hearing. Fined $375.50. To complete a National Traffic Safety Institute (NTSI) course. Serve 20 hours of Community Service. 6 months Unsupervised Probation.
?? July 2009
3rd Quarterly Weapon Loading Competition. My team is the first to qualify and supposed to participate but somehow got swapped out in the last minute. Opportunity for me to redeem myself was taken away...
?? Sept 2009
Some young chap got caught for speeding 30 mph above the limit (10 mph more than me) and got away for zero charges.
12 Oct 2009
Official letter from Head Air Manpower. No MDES.
30 Oct 2009
Posting date set at 30 Jan 2010. Vehicle sold.
02 Nov 2009
Extension for 4 personnel till 16 March 2010. (99% approved according to OIC)
29 Nov 2009
With 3 more months to go. No choice. Bought another vehicle.
?? Dec 2009
4th Quarter Weapon Loading Competition. Should be my team to have a shot but somehow lose the opportunity again.
04 Jan 2010
According to S1, with SMO's confirmation, my posting extension was not submitted in time. Set to go back on 5 February 2010. Out processing paperwork rushing to be done. Shipment boxes to be sent to me A.S.A.P.
17 Jan 2010
Vehicle sold. Planned to go back to celebrate Valentine's Day with my girlfriend, visit her parent & relatives on Chinese New Year and work towards our marriage plans. Arrangements for the sales of my home in Singapore is to be postponed.
19 Jan 2010
Somehow or rather my extension paperwork was overlooked. My posting out date as of now is changed to 16 March 2010 again. Totally devastated.
22 Jan 2010
Annual Weapon Loading Competition. I should have a shot at it. Farewell piss up for the Jan & Feb personnel, plaque was given, but mine was withdrawn from the group. The best that I could do is to just walked away... I have got no sense of belonging here...
Now I don't know how should I break the news to my family and girlfriend. Well, I will hope for the worst to happen. Many things can happen in this extension period. Who knows maybe I will die here of accident or something even before I can see my love ones.
It doesn't just takes one setback to knock me off. It's the amount of it that keeps piling on top that breaks me...
all gone, just like that... 5:49 PM
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Ample
The date is set... 5 February 2010. I am going home...
Enough is enough. Enough of bullshits. When I first came I was offered 1 year of posting duration, but in the mid of it, due to Organization's operation requirement, I was set to go back on 30 January 2010. Fine. So I sold my vehicle and get ready to go home. A few days after my vehicle is sold, the management told me that I will stay till 16 March 2010 due to the lack of experienced personnel in PCV. Damn it. They are so confirmed that they dare to lay their dicks on the chopping board. Telling me that 99.99% I will stay no matter what. Another 3 more months to go, so I decided to buy another vehicle. Until last Wednesday, the management came to tell me that they have decided to let me go back on 5 February 2010. 24 more days. What the fuck, right?!
All these dates are only affecting me. The only guy in PCV that have no MDES. I meant if it is like a group of people that are being affected as a whole batch then I would have nothing to say, but why only me? Why? Haven't my life been screwed up enough since the day I came here? Now even the President of Singapore comes to tell me that there will be an extension on my posting duration here, I will just ignore...
So all the guys that are going back on the 30 Jan & 5 Feb have already done all their out-processing paperwork, shipments and stuffs. I am the only sucker that got to confirm my posting out date last Wednesday. So I am behind the time-line and I need to catch up with the rest of the group. See the hassles that I need to go through that the others are not? My life is too dynamic... I am tired...
all gone, just like that... 12:17 PM
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Terror Rised
By now who wouldn't have known about the Nigerian man who tried to blow up a Detroit-bound plane on Christmas Day? Those who doesn't obviously don't reads, listens or watches any news. Thanks to Umar Farouk Abdulmutallab we now have new TSA screening policy.
Why are the rest of the innocence being "punished" by TSA sercurity negligence?
Because of liquid explosive, we are restricted to bring liquid, gels & aerosols items on board unlessit can fit in one clear resealable quart or liter-sized plastic bag in containers of 3 oz. or less (Fine...). But look at this statement from the news: "New details emerging about Umar Farouk Abdulmutallab suggested his abortive attack on Northwest Airlines Flight 253 was planned in Yemen by Al-Qaeda members who even sewed an explosive device into the 23-year-old's underwear."
Great. Somewhere in the near future, we will all be asked to remove our underwear and put them separate in one clear resealable plastic bag for custom clearance or even better, fly naked.
Already, with the current TSA screening policy & time guide for checking-in is 2 hours before your flight for international and 1 hour for domestic, I still see alot of people missed their flights because of the airport's bad management of counters & queues. What do you think with the new added security measures?
See? Big entities always comes up with ideas to punish the crowds in order to condole their mistakes. Why should we pay with our time and hassles because of their blatant actions of letting a terrorist slide? How much man-hour is wasted on a Boeing 747 full of passengers? Because of their power to impose certain rules & regulations, they make it hard on us, the people traveling, their customers...
It is the same for the Organization that I am working for now. When one makes a mistake, thee is punished, follwed by a series of AAR then new regulations will be imposed. The system is already in placed, why make things more complicated?
Hey don't get me wrong here. I am all in for fighting terrorists but sometimes when mistakes are made, one should always reflect on oneself first...
all gone, just like that... 8:20 PM
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Fly With Me
Here I am stuck at Los Angeles International Airport (LAX) waiting for my next flight back to Boise (BOI) with 5 hours to go. I was thinking of whether to rent a car and hit out for lunch or something, but the idea was dropped when I saw the hassles of getting back into the boarding gates. The queue through the X-ray check was crazy, I even decided not to go out for a smoke anymore until I reach BOI.
While flying from Narita (NRT), Tokyo to LAX, I watched the movie, Julie & Julia. Summary for the movie was that Julia Child & Julie Powell - both of whom wrote memoirs - find their lives intertwined. Though separated by time and space, both women are at loose ends... until they discover that with the right combination of passion, fearlessness and butter, anything is possible.
It's not much of a movie if you don't understand what the intents of the 2 women were doing. They both started of as not knowing what they really wanted to do in their life. Until by chances & opportunities that they found an aim, something to hold on, to keep their lives going. It's not that they are dying from illness or what, but just that everyone should live with a meaning in their life. You are not even considered alive if you are just a zombie, reacting to daily routine tasks.
I am a Zombie... I have lived through many experiences, been to many places, seen many people, understanding different behaviors of different many and learning all the meanings of everything that happened, happens for a reason... But I keep asking myself, what do I want to do in my life? I am pretty much of a everything, a Jack-of-All-Trades, a perfectionist. Others see me as a very focus person, who knew what should be the next best move to take for whatever situations, but I am not sure. Deep down inside, I still don't have an answer to my own question. I got all these thoughts & directions going in my mind, but it is vague. I need a plan. A solid one, on paper or something. Since I now know that my current career is gonna end at 2012. Maybe I should stop excelling in my current job anymore and divert my attention to my plans instead?
Hmmm..........
Argh. I can't do it. I can't make myself to perform a sloppy job. That's the problem of being a perfectionist. I have been given time, but it's not fulfilling enough. I talk to my inner self when I write. Sometimes I even asked: Is it something normal? Kind of like self reflection? Good or bad? Am I crazy? Thinking too much? Don't even worry about me, I don't need a therapist, I am mentally well. It only happens when I write... Especially now, alone, looking at people from all walks of life, all over the world passing me by in the airport. Helplessly letting time fly pass me as I just sit and watch...
all gone, just like that... 1:49 PM
Monday, November 2, 2009
Abbreviations
I have setup a countdown sequence... Strangely it is to count down for my days left here because I never believe it... Last time when I was in PC II, I see every rotation of guys who are about to go back home keep counting down until the day they leave the squadron. I always thought they are just losers because it is not the count down to their retirement. They will still need to get their butts kick by the somebody else when they are back in Singapore.
People have ups & downs in their life. I believed that crossing over to PC V is my down decision. Everything seems wrong to me or for me.
My posting is supposed to be a 1-year duration, but due to Organization requirement, mine have been chopped down to 9-months, thus losing my home trip entitlement. (It's ok...)
I am the most current with regards to operating with USAF. AFTO 781 and IMDS are all still at the back of my mind. I thought I was going to take up the secondary appointment of either one, but no. Not even a 2 I/C. My secondary appointment was Sports I/C. I am a Sports I/C, knowledgeable of AFTO 781 and IMDS, handling most of the tasks in the background for the appointed I/C. (It's ok...)
I was a nobody here. Until when I get arrested for speeding, everyone in the squadron from the top to the bottom knows me. The management did my background check, then realized that my CEP is at MWO with past 4 years of P1 & P2 ranking. So what?!
I am fortunate that I was the first qualified WLT. Supposedly my team is to go for a competition but got swapped out by another team, I don't know why. Opportunities for me to redeem myself are given to me and taken away by others. (It's ok...)
And there are people in PC V that have gotten into deep shit. HF induced GAIR. All of them got awarded the ROVW. As for me? I got a 7 weeks ban from driving, 20 hours of community service, 6 months of unsupervised probation and total cost of estimated $1000 fines & etc cost. (It's ok...) Apparently another guy got caught for speeding 30 miles above the speed limit, he got nothing much I guess, still sees him happily everyday. Duhz.
Anyway, by now most in Singapore would have known that the RSAF have 3 new schemes. The MDES is the one applicable to us. The one-time offer now is to those who converts from their current PP1/PP2 scheme will not have any salary adjustment from what you are currently drawing now and your rank will convert as according to the grades in MDES. I should say it is a good scheme, but it is only offered to those without disciplinary actions or bad PES status. Guess what? All those who have got into deep shits are all being offered MDES except me. All of them induced aircraft related accidents/incident that may result in loss of mission/human life. Me? Speeding? I received a letter from HAM, no deal from MDES at the time being. WTF?! HAL came last friday to elaborate more about MDES to those who have yet to convert. After this one-time offer of conversions, those who are selected for MDES the next time will be starting from ground zero. Do you think I will still stay if I were to start as a CPL/3SG? If I was in ST Aerospace or SIA or even USAF, I don't think I will be sack just because of speeding. Fuck shit man! Do government sector personnel get sack from speeding/parking tickets in Singapore? (It's not ok anymore!)
By the way, the management are intending to extend my duration for another 1 or 2 months now. If my morale was still that high, I would have said "hell yeah" to that, but now I guess is "hell no".
After all these spades of chronological events, what have I achieved for my stay here? Nothing good. Extend my miseries here? All achievements are given to others except me. With all that, I should have ample reasons to countdown to go back home... At least I can see my family...
all gone, just like that... 12:34 PM
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Routine
*yawn*
Woken up by Sam on this Saturday morning, asking me if I can lend Sion my car as his doesn't have air conditioning and he needs to travel down to Boise, ID (45 minutes drive). Whatever... I have no plans of going out anyway. The whole village of Singaporeans will be in Boise and I dread entertaining people (balls licker), I have got no friends that came & there is zero reason for me to go down there. Freaking waste of driving time...
Yesterday there were 3 flights full of Singaporeans that touched down Boise. They are with us. Here's a shoutout to them: "Welcome to Mountain Home!" Hope they brought enough luck to survive through their duration of stay. Looking at the rate of accidents/incidents that we have since day 1 of operation, soon enough we can charter a flight to send people on a one-way trip back to Singapore. Anyway they are here for training, if shit still lands on them even on training, then I guess we are really those "hand-picks" to be Fucked, Cursed & Damned...
Now the guys are bringing the new guys around, showing them what this pathetic part of USA looks like. As usual, first is to get a cellphone number, then followed by looking around for cars until they all have their paperwork ready to be able to buy one for themselves. Pretty much nothing they can do today except for looking around and buying those necessities. It will be extremely silly to be shopping because they don't have a home yet, temporally staying on base lodging.
Why the hell am I talking about what is going to happen to them, I am not their narrator. Well, I just hope they will "enjoy" their stay...
all gone, just like that... 12:05 PM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Karma?
Self-destruct sequence activated...
Tonnes of money lost due to trust.
Starts to lose things.
Got my finger crushed at work.
Car damaged by dead animal.
Car got bumped by unknown people.
Now I am awaiting a hearing...
Hmm... Are all these my karma? Seems like my luck have ran out. All these are accidents and it happened just only in a short duration of time. I should have seen it coming. What's next? Death? I will rather choose death because it will end all the bad spades of event once and for all...
I am not going under some kind of depression state. Well, how ever bad the outcome will be, Life still goes on right? We shall wait and see how ugly people can get. Singapore management? Haha. 90% says that I am equivalent to dead. Democratic? Forgiving? No comments for now (guys who knows me well enough will know how I felt about Singaporeans). Let me deal with the Singaporeans on Tuesday then I shall label them accordingly. This is the real test of who are my friends & who wants me dead. I am glad that I have 2 great friends that are concern about me now. What has happened have happened. No point crying over spilled milk. Either I choose to get another kind of drink or buy myself another bottle of milk. Let's face the music. Bring it on...
all gone, just like that... 10:37 PM
ABOUT ME
Kent ZZ
25th June 1982
Woodlands, Singapore
Cancer
Tranquility
Optimistic
Perfectionist
No Music. . . No Life. . . . .
LOVE
♥♥ My Little Vampire ♥♥
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Billiards
Mahjong
Night Breeze
Clubs & Dance
Designs & Styles
Moonlight & Stars
Black / White / Grey / Blue
DETESTS
Morons
Sarcasm
Hypocrites
Backstabbers
Bad Hair Days
Unappreciations
WISHLIST
Financial Freedom Get my back center piece from Kat Von D Complete my art A.S.A.P. Find my perfect partner
All things to go well & stay happily together
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World tour [Foot Stepped] :
[√] Australia ↓
. Rockhampton, Queensland
[√] Canada ↓
. Edmonton, Alberta
[√] Hong Kong ↓
. Chek Lap Kok Airport [Int]
[√] India ↓
. Kalaikunda Air Force Station, West Bengal, Kolkata
[√] Japan ↓
. Hakone
. Tokyo
[√] Malaysia ↓
. Johor Bahru
. Kuala Lumpur
. Melaka
. Yong Peng
[√] South Korea ↓
. Incheon International Airport [Int]
[√] Taiwan ↓
. Taipei
[√] Thailand ↓
. Bangkok
. Nakonratchasima
[√] United States of America ↓
. Fairbanks North Star Borough, Alaska
. Flagstaff, Arizona
. Grand Canyon, Arizona
. Phoenix, Arizona
. Los Angeles, California
. San Diego, California
. San Francisco, California
. Panama City, Florida
. Destin, Florida
. Boise, Idaho
. Mountain Home, Idaho
. Twin Falls, Idaho
. Bossier City, Louisiana
. Saint Louis, Missouri
. Jackpot, Nevada
. Las Vegas, Nevada
. Rachel, Nevada
. Wendover, Nevada
. Salt Lake City, Utah
. 4 Corners - Colorado, New Mexico, Arizona & Utah
Next Stop :
[x] Antartica
[x] China
[x] Europe
[x] Middle East
[x] Russia
[x] South America
Here I am stuck at Los Angeles International Airport (LAX) waiting for my next flight back to Boise (BOI) with 5 hours to go. I was thinking of whether to rent a car and hit out for lunch or something, but the idea was dropped when I saw the hassles of getting back into the boarding gates. The queue through the X-ray check was crazy, I even decided not to go out for a smoke anymore until I reach BOI.
Self-destruct sequence activated...
Kent ZZ